A mask I fabricate, a façade I create
Cuz I know, no matter how hard you try, you can’t penetrate
Impermeable barrier I raise, can’t see through the haze
An identity not my own is the image I portray
A simple minded man, another member of the band
If that’s what you see, better get a vision plan
Don’t believe the lies, don’t look with your eyes
Listen to the heart before you choose to decide

Sarcasm is a weapon, words are my ammunition
To battle people breaking through my façade creation
I contrive and deceive my loved ones around me
Leave me alone, man, just let me be
Some bits of clarity, rise from the unconscious mind
A hole in my defense, tired from the daily grind
Few whispers of truth slip from my lips
Catch them while you can, don’t let them slip

Actions speak louder than words, so yall better listen
I’m a man of few words and that is the reason
My behavior contradicts this façade I’ve created
Led others to believe my whole life was consecrated
But deep beneath it all, my soul’s dark and mad twisted
Tainted by past wounds not yet reconciliated
So like the old saying goes, listen before you speak
Maybe you’ll understand what makes my heart beat

So please unbuckle that mask, let some air in
I know it’s going to hurt when the mask peels off your skin
But I know this to be true, and I think you do too
This is the first step in being the real you
Appearance is overrated, like a cassette is outdated
Your beauty comes from your true soul illuminated
So let your light shine whether you’re here or away
Cuz the true source of light is none other than Yahweh

Your deception and lies, all I hear are your cries
Cries for help from Him, whose faith you compromised
It’s all an illusion, your own chaos creation
It’s so thick, you got lost in your own confusion
I promise you this, speak in honesty and truth
God will set you free from the sins that hinder you
Words are instruments of love, tools to glorify Him
Just remember one thing, purity comes from within

So people, hear me, when I speak these words please
Be who you are, who God made you to be
If actions don’t express the convictions of the soul
Might as well be dead, buried in a hole
A life full of passion is your heaven sent mission
To love people around you, aka the great commission
So let motives of your actions be righteous intentions
One full of hope, peace and holy devotion

=)

If you are the rock and my true foundation,
Then why do I fall to every temptation.
A cute girl walks by, man… I ain’t gonna lie,
Inappropriate thoughts race through my mind.
I catch a whiff of smoke, it ain’t no joke,
I get so weak, when my cravings provoke.
Is this who I am? A weak fragile man?
A small pond in the devil’s right hand?

If you are the Father and I am you child,
Then why does my life feel so bland and mild?
Where’s the excitement God? Where’s the joy,
That I used to feel when I was a spiritual young boy?
What happened to the happiness that my soul once embraced
In the simple fact that I was running the good race?
Where did I falter God? Where did I stumble?
That now my soul is broken, nothing left but crumbles.

If you are my guide, my one guiding light,
Then why do earthly goods seem so bright?
Power and the glory, money and the fame,
Consumes my mind like a kid a candy cane.
Financial stability has become my priority,
That even on Sundays I pass the bag empty handedly.
I fear that my soul will be consumed by my greed,
That I’ll die a rich man, spiritually in need.

If God created Eve to be Adam’s significant other,
Why don’t You have any love for this lonely brother.
I’m not asking for a girl, a girlfriend or wife,
Just another human being with whom I can share life.
I mean, I pretend to be strong, I deny all my wrongs,
In hopes of covering up pain I’ve held on so long.
I don’t want to look back on my life and one day realize,
I was walking this life alone, me, myself, and I.

I know what you’re gonna say, that Jesus is the way,
I’ve known that fact ever since my fifth birthday.
Don’t feed me Christianese on how to heal the pain,
I’ve known that shit it’s all stored up in the brain.
I know what you’re thinking, I just said the word shit,
Are you so caught up you forgot everything I said before it?
This is my expression, this is my release
Of all the frustration that never seem to cease.

So renew my conviction God, give me motivation
To put all these thoughts into some sort of action!
A man’s faith without works is as good as dead,
At least that’s what a wise man once said.
I need a sense of direction Lord, my own personal navigation,
A heavenly GPS to guide me to my life’s mission.
I’m that lost sheep God, that needs to be found.
So break my legs Lord and carry me to safe ground.

I don’t know what I’m getting at, feel like I’m trapped in a cage.
These are some bullshit thoughts I’ve written on this page.
But I pray that it’s real, that some of its true,
That my soul wants to be revived, start off a new.
So I hope you heard this God, but not just the simple words
But the cry of man who’s life’s messed up, disturbed.
So I pray for your hand of truth to set me free,
So that one day I’ll live out the life you have in store for me.

This one is dedicated to a very special dong-seng of mine. I hope you read this and know who you are. Just wanted to encourage you as you start off this new year, that it will be full of joy and peace. I hope you fully recognize how beautiful and wonderful you are and that you will learn to put the past behind you and look forward to the future.

When you look in the mirror what do you see?
A mere reflection of the person you’re created to be?
Pain and heartache have tarnished your legacy
Truth buried under doubts and insecurities

Don’t let the past dictate your emotional state
And formulate thoughts that propagate personal hate
Rather meditate on ideas that celebrate
Your inner beauty, in your soul let it culminate

Don’t let your history complicate your true identity
Rather use it as a story for your own personal victory
Strength and integrity, confidence, sincerity
Foundational adjectives for your new individuality

A new perspective, only you can create
Personal acceptance, from within it must initiate
Be patient and wait, as your future starts to formulate
And your reflection will smile and say “To the new you, I congratulate”

The admiration of beauty from long distance
Is injustice to the heart, emotional disturbance
Cuz in that instance, when you eyes catch her glimpse
Internal turbulence is the story of my existence

The expression of love in its invisible state
Is torture to the soul, a twisted fate
Can’t compensate, her beauty you can’t duplicate
Butterflies it creates, accelerates the heart rate

My mind in chaos, but my spirit waits patiently
For that one chance, hope for opportunity
Maybe one day we’ll see, you and me in harmony
The story of we, real life serendipity

Until that moment comes, my feelings I will delay
Even when I see you, your beauty walking my way
I hope and I pray, somehow that I may
Stare into your eyes and say, “Been looking forward to this day.”

“Hi, my name is Dave.”

We all got it. Whether it’s evident or not.
We find many devious ways to avoid getting caught
Find comfort in the darkness, fight to shun the light
Devour sinful cravings til our spiritual pants get too tight

We all do it. Put on a spiritual masquerade
Actors and actresses playing holy characters we made
Lights camera action, the set is false reality
We get so good, we win Oscars from the Academy

Hate to admit it, this is the reality of the situation
We live in a world full of lies and deception
Misrepresentation of the manifestation of sin
Creates a generation with a false idea of Him

Be exposed to it, to the lies sin has created
Life covered in darkness Satan has complicated
Recognition of the truth comes at a great expense
Vulnerability is the price of personal acceptance

Face up to it, before it consumes your life whole
Hidden secrets are like cancer, deadly to the soul
Honest confession leads to divine intervention
Without grace and compassion there can be no restoration

Have faith in it, God and His graceful sovereignty
All your sins made clean, He is Transformating Purity
His mercy you will feel, before Him you shall kneel
All your wound and scars, with His blood thou shall be healed

Tick tock tick tock, time goes by too slow
ain’t got nuthin’ to do, cept work on my flow
Surfin’ the web, chatting with people on gmail
If the internet went down.. man, major FAIL!

Thank God for Facebook, at least I have somethin to do
Reading articles on ESPN helps a lot too
Online shopping is curse and a huge benefit
I’ve found so many good deals on slickdeals.net

Today I feel like i’m wasting my life away
When I could be at home playing NBA2K
I guess it’s worth it, sitting here getting paid
But I feel like my inner youth is startin’ to fade

Is this really me? Is this who I’ve become
Joyless day after day, my heart’s becoming numb
Maybe I’ll leave early, but I need a lie to tell
“Work is too stressful…..” puahahaha! LOL!

Maybe it’s time for a change, time to move on
Need to find a passion before my motivation is gone
The main question is, what to do with my life
The answer is hard like cutting metal with a knife

Any suggestions/references??

I will never be the man that people want me to be
Please do not place your misguided expectations on me
Cuz you see, I will never allow myself to be
A puppet controlled by the powers of society

I will not let myself be tempted by the comparison game
My identity based on status or the title in my name
I do not care from which university you came
I will not get caught up in this lame struggle for fame

I’d rather choose to fight for my individuality
I’m uniquely and wonderfully make in God’s creativity
Societal pressures will never get the best of me
God’s approval is the only thing that defines my identity

How do I cope with the temptation and the pain?
Like any other fight, in spiritual discipline I must train
Have faith in the fact, in my place the Lord was slain
Alpha and Omega, in my life will you reign

My life is getting blurry, afraid of the outcome
I need clarity of sight to see what my life will become
What do I do if I can’t see the path to truth
Logical mental facility, I need evidential proof

Always found comfort in knowing where my life was headed
But now I’m entering the abyss, my chaotic thoughts initiated
What if I fall, stumble into the unknown
Life whithering away, buried beneath broken stones

Blindness is something to be feared, crippling to the soul
but God tells us that He is in ultimate control
Reluctance takes hold, as you press auto navigate
Close your eyes and let go, to Him let it gravitate

Do not fear it, for my plan for you is perfect
Don’t underestimate the power of the Almighty Majestic
Open my horizon God, let your thoughts be mine
Thank you Lord for making me spiritually blind